i'm totally lost and devestated by everything that took place from 1+pm till now. my loved 2pm has been torn apart. seriously. i was praying for the day 2pm would visit singapore as a whole. not with jay gone or someone replacing him or even down to 6people. it totally sucks.

i at times wonder why antis would do such things. asking idols to commit suicide is a super damn wrong thing to ever happen. who in the right state of mind would ask someone to do that? --" a small mistake could ruin someone's dreams in life. maybe they should even understand a person's situation before knocking them down this hard.

i nvr felt this way before. i cant believe such things either. all we can do now is pray for a miracle. i definitely want a miracle to happen NOW. that's all i ever ask for.

unhappy readers pls kindly press the little "x" on the top right hand corner. DON SPAM ME before i give you hell.

I'm so needing to spell the word FAT!! been eating alot lately. heex. from fish&co on wed with lovely girlfriends to sake on sat with mommy dearest and sister to polo club today. i need to diet and exercise now. i don think i wanna work anymore. mommy love says she would support me. hahas! so i have time to focus on my driving and fyp and even to GYM. shall ask jenn babe to gym with me. i'm in desperate need to do so. hahas!! walking wang gucci isnt enough. my fat monster is fat. hahas! makes no sense but yeah. super tired. shall rest for the nite. and update soon. (: so loving the holis now!

1 more paper left but there is totally no mood to study for it. i feel so --" how i wish it has alr ended!! it's okay. after paper tmr is party! :D outing with 6-2 girlfriends! :D:D to EAT! lol. den slack and roam town.:D sadly, polymer people end paper the latest. :( i bet i'll leave once i'm done with it! hahas!! :D:D:D wish me luck and bless me!! i need it. 2pm is my motivation to study!! :D babe and i found motivation in it! :D